When I became a Man

Found this from a very special friend! A tard long but is an ocean of truth!
Enjoy!!


When I became a man 
I put away childish things 
But before I became a man 
I didn’t always fit the shoes of a King 
I was a child trying to find his way 
The toys I played with kept my eyes occupied 
And left my eyes in a lustful boyish frenzy 
My playmates had long legs, short skirts and soft skin 
They cared enough to lie down and wallow with me often 
Jezebel turned out to be my very best friend 
I’d look in her eyes before ever seeing the sunrise 
Every time I paid her a visit and slept in 


Before I became a man 
I saw how God made Adam from dust 
So likewise I tried to make love out of lust 
I didn’t know any better 
I was taught by example 
 “Let your mouth spit game, but never let your heart say much, ” 
I treated his daughters like beauty pageant contestants 
There would be zero return on their investments 
Proverbs 31 was never a criterion for my selection 
Keep in mind this was before I became a man 


 Before I became a man 
I would unlock my curse and throw away the key 
I allowed anger to set up a construction company inside 
Bitterness never rested 
It left no time wasted 
Whether Father loved me or not 
All I could regurgitate was hatred 
I became allergic to showing any form of compassion 


Before I became a man 
I was much shorter 
Not just in height but in spiritual insight 
Because I never had a picture 
Nor did Pixar ever have a film 
Showing me what God’s man really looked like 


But when I became man Oh, 
When I became a man 
I learned how to love Father God right back 
Even though I’m good at falling short of the glory 
I reflect on my story 
Through my praise 
I’ll self publish a testimony 
When I became a man 
I learned how to cry 
Because I’m not ashamed of my tears 
Since I became a man 
I’m no longer afraid of the dark 
I’ll wrap my hands around James 5: 16 
Confess, Pray, and Heal my Heart 


 I have discovered something 
That there are medicinal qualities 
Right down the corridor of introspection 
When I became a man 
I learned how to love her My Esther, My Ruth 
I learned how to honor her like she was Jesus’ mother 
Because one day she’ll be pregnant 
With the seed that will transport my legacy 
So that my God and my name will both have longevity 
Even after they bury me 


I could not love her before 
Because I was not able 
My insecurities and my perfectionism had me 
Looking in on the next best player 
That was checking in at the scorer’s table 
How could I possibly be her covering? 
When I was an umbrella with holes in it 
But I learned to love her like I ought to 
Because I want Him to be my Father and my Father-in-law 
Since that’s his daughter 


When I became a man 
I learned to love my brother 
I’ll share my heart, my hug and my hallelujah 
Because a hug and a hallelujah without my heart 
Leaves room for his spirit to respond with “I never knew you” 
I became a man so that when he became a man He would know a man 
Who picked up the gospel and put the toys away 


 When I became a man

I am..

Look at me and smile
Hold my hand and walk a mile
Think of me and all the while
Want no one else in your life.
Call me baby when they are around
Call me friend when nothing is abound
Call me your one, your life
Because I am.

I am your sun, your light
I am your moon in the night
I am the wind in your hair
I am and will always be there.
I am the music of your heart
I am the rhythm to your dance
I am all this and more
I am all that you know.

I am strong and tender
I am your friend and lover
I am your sidekick and main-dish
I am one who knows what you’re thinking.

And I will always be….

Can't be, Won't be.. Without You.

The thoughts in my mind I put down as letters
The words that my mouth so sweetly utters
The deeds of my hands, my little fingers
These small these things, you, my heart offers.
You picked me from the grime
Washed me in your blood
You took my shame
And called me by name.


You walked me through those gates
That are told only in tales
You’ve shown me that it’s not fate
Nothing You’ve done is by mistake.
You’re crazy about me even when I mess up
You get butterflies in your tummy when I call you up.
You can’t wait to hear my voice each time
When I tell you that You are mine.

Where would be, if not for You?
I can’t begin t imagine the distance
Far from You, without You
Holding on to fallacies.
I have found unfading love, peace
I fell in love with You, and still is
I have fallen, still do, still will
But I know You’ll never leave.

I guess I just want to let you know
That I will need You especially when I want to let go
Help me keep it real, in Your truth
I’ll forever be chasing after You!

Above the Clouds...

Her small foot is swallowed in my canvas print
Her palm firmly on mine
She looks at me and smiles
I’m taken by the shine in her eyes.
‘I’ve never been in a big car,’ she says
There has been no need, where she stays
She has had no place to call home
Her life, has always been on the road.

School? Classroom? Foreign words
Words that the white one has
That has no place in her world
A distant dream, no more of a thought.
I smile at her, my heart breaks
She may never get her big break
Guns and bombs, her future they take
A sad and never ending plague.

As we walk around, its time for me to go
She wants more, not ready to let go
I whisper a promise.. I’ll come back tomorrow
She smiles knowing that may not be so.
So I get into that big car
Her hands firm on the window
A hard painful load I swallow
She mimes.. “Above the clouds..”
Above the clouds I will be safe
On the other side of this life
Above the clouds, I will be great
On the other half of this life.

Words of a healing heart..

I had found him!
I had found love that I still cherish
I had found someone I could last forever with
I had found him!

See he was my everything
My sweetheart, my prince and King
For him, I would give ANYTHING
My someone, my one, my only.
He taught me to dance to the beat of my heart
He wiped the tears when I hurt
I taught him to make us our world
I showed him it was ok for him, with me to let down his guard.

What a journey! What a rollercoaster!
What I would have done to have him closer.
Laughs and cries, wins and losses
Back downs and forces.
But it had to end as He is jealous
It had to end as He wants me on him, focus
It had to end though He knows I'm still crazy about him
It had to end coz it had to be about Him.

So I wait and try to redefine life
I sit and stare at invisible butterflies
I cry and hope for a better tomorrow
I smile and know there is a better tomorrow.
I have loved, I still love
I have loved, I still will love
I have loved, I still will forever love
Simply because I have known love.

For my Unborn

From the moment I knew you were in me
I promised you, I would never leave
From the moment I felt you inside me
I knew forever would be you and me.
I count the minutes, the hours, days
I love the bump, and the weight I've gained
His eyes light up when his hands caress my tummy
You know his touch coz you get so jumpy!

I passed the shop today and saw your booties
I teared at the thought of you, one day, in your dream boots
I dream about massaging your little feet as you sleep
I long to hear you laugh when you’re playing.
If time was a boat, I’d sail far away
If the shore was tomorrow, I’d swim on to forget today
If life was a book, I’d rush through the pages
Only to get to you.

I can’t wait for you to crawl, then walk
For you to trip and fall
I cant wait for your first heart break
Coz then my comforting arms will be your all.
I pray that I’ll be your best friend when you’re 26
Coz those silly ones will steal your heart away by 6
I pray that my words, in your mind will ring
And my counsel you will sing.

My little angel, I’ll give you my all
I’ll be the best mother just as I learn how
We’ll make mistakes and screw up together
Though I know, with these, we’ll grow closer
I’ll read every article in the internet
But I promise that my everything for you, will come from my heart
I hope to read this to you, someday
Just to show you, that I’m here to stay!

Wiser...

Gosh! It's been over a year since I last wrote!
So much has happened in my life.. And these words say just a flimsy bit.. I hope you like this piece.

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I now know I haven’t been the first
And just like light, truth has travelled fast
I now know that it could have been a lie
And like a labouring woman I did cry.
They say the writings were on the wall
But it took me everything to see that, my all
That where there is smoke, it’s definitely a blaze
And these lessons what an inferno they have raised!
Don’t ask how much I’ve burnt
See the scars I have earned
Don’t think of how I could be hurt
See the tears I have gathered.


I now know I had to go through the fire
For the diamond that I am to shine
I now know I had to walk through the tire
For the champ in me to fly
I now know I had to sulk and wallow
For me to get this joy I just cannot fathom
I now know I had to wake up
For my dream to be real.

I now know I had to shut up
For Your voice to speak.
I now know I had to run away
For me to You, be closer
I now know I had to stray
For me, in You, to be deeper.

I now know I had to screw up
For me to be wiser.