Can't be, Won't be.. Without You.

The thoughts in my mind I put down as letters
The words that my mouth so sweetly utters
The deeds of my hands, my little fingers
These small these things, you, my heart offers.
You picked me from the grime
Washed me in your blood
You took my shame
And called me by name.


You walked me through those gates
That are told only in tales
You’ve shown me that it’s not fate
Nothing You’ve done is by mistake.
You’re crazy about me even when I mess up
You get butterflies in your tummy when I call you up.
You can’t wait to hear my voice each time
When I tell you that You are mine.

Where would be, if not for You?
I can’t begin t imagine the distance
Far from You, without You
Holding on to fallacies.
I have found unfading love, peace
I fell in love with You, and still is
I have fallen, still do, still will
But I know You’ll never leave.

I guess I just want to let you know
That I will need You especially when I want to let go
Help me keep it real, in Your truth
I’ll forever be chasing after You!

Above the Clouds...

Her small foot is swallowed in my canvas print
Her palm firmly on mine
She looks at me and smiles
I’m taken by the shine in her eyes.
‘I’ve never been in a big car,’ she says
There has been no need, where she stays
She has had no place to call home
Her life, has always been on the road.

School? Classroom? Foreign words
Words that the white one has
That has no place in her world
A distant dream, no more of a thought.
I smile at her, my heart breaks
She may never get her big break
Guns and bombs, her future they take
A sad and never ending plague.

As we walk around, its time for me to go
She wants more, not ready to let go
I whisper a promise.. I’ll come back tomorrow
She smiles knowing that may not be so.
So I get into that big car
Her hands firm on the window
A hard painful load I swallow
She mimes.. “Above the clouds..”
Above the clouds I will be safe
On the other side of this life
Above the clouds, I will be great
On the other half of this life.

Words of a healing heart..

I had found him!
I had found love that I still cherish
I had found someone I could last forever with
I had found him!

See he was my everything
My sweetheart, my prince and King
For him, I would give ANYTHING
My someone, my one, my only.
He taught me to dance to the beat of my heart
He wiped the tears when I hurt
I taught him to make us our world
I showed him it was ok for him, with me to let down his guard.

What a journey! What a rollercoaster!
What I would have done to have him closer.
Laughs and cries, wins and losses
Back downs and forces.
But it had to end as He is jealous
It had to end as He wants me on him, focus
It had to end though He knows I'm still crazy about him
It had to end coz it had to be about Him.

So I wait and try to redefine life
I sit and stare at invisible butterflies
I cry and hope for a better tomorrow
I smile and know there is a better tomorrow.
I have loved, I still love
I have loved, I still will love
I have loved, I still will forever love
Simply because I have known love.

For my Unborn

From the moment I knew you were in me
I promised you, I would never leave
From the moment I felt you inside me
I knew forever would be you and me.
I count the minutes, the hours, days
I love the bump, and the weight I've gained
His eyes light up when his hands caress my tummy
You know his touch coz you get so jumpy!

I passed the shop today and saw your booties
I teared at the thought of you, one day, in your dream boots
I dream about massaging your little feet as you sleep
I long to hear you laugh when you’re playing.
If time was a boat, I’d sail far away
If the shore was tomorrow, I’d swim on to forget today
If life was a book, I’d rush through the pages
Only to get to you.

I can’t wait for you to crawl, then walk
For you to trip and fall
I cant wait for your first heart break
Coz then my comforting arms will be your all.
I pray that I’ll be your best friend when you’re 26
Coz those silly ones will steal your heart away by 6
I pray that my words, in your mind will ring
And my counsel you will sing.

My little angel, I’ll give you my all
I’ll be the best mother just as I learn how
We’ll make mistakes and screw up together
Though I know, with these, we’ll grow closer
I’ll read every article in the internet
But I promise that my everything for you, will come from my heart
I hope to read this to you, someday
Just to show you, that I’m here to stay!

Wiser...

Gosh! It's been over a year since I last wrote!
So much has happened in my life.. And these words say just a flimsy bit.. I hope you like this piece.

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I now know I haven’t been the first
And just like light, truth has travelled fast
I now know that it could have been a lie
And like a labouring woman I did cry.
They say the writings were on the wall
But it took me everything to see that, my all
That where there is smoke, it’s definitely a blaze
And these lessons what an inferno they have raised!
Don’t ask how much I’ve burnt
See the scars I have earned
Don’t think of how I could be hurt
See the tears I have gathered.


I now know I had to go through the fire
For the diamond that I am to shine
I now know I had to walk through the tire
For the champ in me to fly
I now know I had to sulk and wallow
For me to get this joy I just cannot fathom
I now know I had to wake up
For my dream to be real.

I now know I had to shut up
For Your voice to speak.
I now know I had to run away
For me to You, be closer
I now know I had to stray
For me, in You, to be deeper.

I now know I had to screw up
For me to be wiser.

It's time.. I'm prime..

Diamond stone, you’ve been on my mind
Yet apparently so very hard to find
I have looked for you upon peaks high
Still, your sight is still not nigh.
They keep telling me to try harder
Walk longer, run farther
Search deeper, seek wider
Spot yonder, listen clearer.
Well, all that I have done and more
Put in more than I could know
Press on even when it’s no longer, no more
Amazingly, and for some reason, I keep holding on.

I see life when you’re beside me
Unspeakable bliss, I can’t stop imagining
Such mind’s peace and ease
Nothing comes closer to that feeling.
My dreams would be reality
My reality would be like no futurity
I’d be living for today and not any other
I’d have found my immaculate other!
Tell me, diamond stone, you can see it too
How lovely it would be, me and you
Tell me you feel the sway of the breeze so cool
How deep we are in the ocean blue.

But you quickly fade away
'No, not yet, child’ you say
But why do I feel, for u, I am prime
Why do you say it isn’t time?
I have given all I could
Sometimes even traded places with the fool
My tank empty was once so full
I have no more from me to pool.
I’m weary, can’t wait for the night
When I shall meet you in the starry light
See you and suddenly be all right
Until when I wake and you still remain in the night.

Scarlet Ingenuity

Oops! There goes my mind
Click click click..
Goes the sound of my heel
Sunebeam, Bata
Ah ah ah honey; D&Gabbana.

They got me on their covers
Others wish me in their covers
Some want me, in covers
Lifestyle of the rich and famous, and the others.

So I need to look good
Make this life look all good
Pose, smile for the camera
Walk, strut on this arena.

Burberry in my fragrance
Spotlight on me, the ambience
Drink, expensive hernessy
Recognize, y’all need to see.

By my side, husband my third
Just smile and wave boy, I'm the stud
Your shine is thanks to me hun
This script let me run.

Lift my hand as you help my step
Out of the limo, don’t fake your grip
Kiss kiss in the air, don’t mudge the face
Perfection is all they should trace.

Uuh I’m loving this camera action
My swagger, their reaction
My poise, their criticism
Mostly their fanatism.

And I look at them scream
Their praises for me they sing
I scorn them, they made me
Am famous, they are just ‘we’.

So then chant, dance, pass out
I’ll sign it for you then I’m out
Me and you two worlds apart
U remain others, I play the part!